True Confessions

Listen Up People...there is a GOD! u wanna kno how i kno? well i'll tell u/ i was layin down in my room last night with the radio on. i culdn't go 2 sleep 4 nuthin because ova the past few weeks alot has been on my mind. i finally came 2 terms with myself & owned up 2 wat i have done in the past. i neva regret cuz if i do, i'll end up losin my mind. i kno evry1 has the feelin that they wish they culd turn bac the hands of time & do things differently but u cant so ppl (includin me) shuld stop regrettin. anyway i started talkin 2 GOD & i really felt that he culd hear 4 the 1st time in my life. i felt that he was rite next 2 me listenin attentively. it got so emotional in my room that warm tears started tricklin down my face. i was serious. i needed HIM 2 kno that i still feel the same way about myself & that i will always love myself no matter wat. if i dont then no 1 will...u feel me? the decisions i make in this lifetime should only b solely based on wat i think is rite & honestly i dont hafta pleez any1 or get any1's approval but Daryal's. I am me so take me as I am...anyway the next thing that happens blew my mind. the radio began 2 play Tupac's Keep Ur Head Up. i knew that that was GOD sendin me a message tellin me 2 keep my head up. i began 2 wipe my tears & a smile began 2 spread across my face. i knew that evrythin was gonna b alrite. u may not seem like it was no big deal but GOD talks 2 evry1 subliminally. u jus gotta b aware enuff 2 c the signs 4 urself. i kno it wont happen 100% ovanight but i started 2 feel a lil bit betta than wat i did in the beginnin of my conversation w/ the man upstairs. i jus gotta take it 1 day @ a time (ayo i sound like im in rehab or sumthin lol) i jus wanted 2 share that stroy on my blogger cuz i feel it & that was real wat i felt. evry1 makes mistakes but sum only learn from it. i wanna b in the percentage 2 which i learn from it!